"so you taught me a lesson to not teach lessons?"

This show right here. Things are looking up. It might be 30 degrees (and snowing in some parts of Jersey), but I think I'll be alright this winter. I may be flying solo, but I'm definitely not alone.
The past couple of weeks have been interesting. Had a girls night for the first time in a long long time. I detested to Bridget Jones, but we watched anyways. I am glad that there are more to come, very soon. Cayce's (And Lindsay's) new kitten is also reason for me to be there at any given time. He's adorable!
The second quarter of school has begun, and It's not horrible. I have had homework for the first time in ages, but It's nothing I can't handle. I wish my work hours hadn't been cut, because I can definitely tolerate that place and It's making my year a hell of a lot easier. A lot more people are asking me to do to projects for them, which is good and bad. Bad, because I am pretty terrible at staying on task and finishing things. Good, because this is incentive to actually do a good job and get credit for it.
I've also started taking pictures again, more than usual I suppose. Mainly of Dennis, but It's been good practice. For what? I don't know. But having dual interests in the design world pleases me.

Serious funsies going on in here.

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Dave, Sam and Dennis stayed at my house on friday night. It was a fun time. I don't know how the hell I became such good friends with these Long Island kids. We pretty much broke the internet. I promised Sam that he could go quadding, but I broke it. It was raining! And sadly I still don't know where the Raritan train station is. The past 2 times I've gone I've just driven around until I see the train tracks. And that almost made them late for the train. Oops!

I guess I'll watch more Arrested Development, but in reality I should be getting a portfolio together in order to get into college. Eff!

The autumn came in like concrete at my face.
Location hasn't changed but I'm not living in the same place.
Its useless to respond respond to anything I've said I've said
I hate to quote this song all wrong but "Why Can't We Still Be Friends"
Aiming to upset me but you're baffling me with your actions.
I am wrong. You are wrong. We subdivide into two factions.
Its made me retarded, I wish I didn't let it.
Everything is upside down. I want those times I can't forget and
Everything is always falling apart.
Everything is always falling apart.
You know I'd amputate my flaws if it meant that I could be with you.
How can I be so self-important in the world today?
My dis-ease of choice will be arriving soon anyway.
We justify our selfishness in every pointless fight.
And I hate to quote this song all wrong but "It Doesn't Make It Right".
Fuck the world.
Everything is breaking and changing and
Everything inside of me is breaking and changing.
Why can't I ever let it go?
If I concentrate real hard I might not ever even know that
Everything is always falling apart.
Everything is always falling apart.
And I'd ignore my dreams in exchange for you being true.
It's going to rain tonight so everything is miserable.
Smoke some more and then I'll go back in and hate.
It's going to rain tonight but it's got to stop eventually.
Let's anticipate the sun and warmth and raise our fists and say:
"Everything is always falling apart, but I can't!"
"Everything is always falling apart, but I can't!"
Everything is always falling apart x1000
(Fell fast asleep. Woke up so easily.
Let's make our dreams transcend reality.
Let's not just seethe, give up, go back to sleep.
Wake up! Don't fall apart.)

this kind of sums up my week

i'm just trying to live my life.

It's some dirty dishes and you wanted more.

I've got this deer tick on my leg. Well, just the head of it.
I think it happened for a reason,
yes, I'm starting to believe lately that everything's happening for a reason.
This is much more than the multiple coincidences i kept having a few weeks ago.
Much more.

hallowmass,

I've known that Hallowmass has existed since 7th or 8th grade, thanks to Adam. but I didn't get in to World/Inferno til last year. Needless to say, I think it lived up to all my expectations.
Me, Dennis, Pam, Marc and Dave took the DOUBLE DECKER train to NYC from Metuchen. When we got to NY Penn Station, 90% of everyone was in costume. Some of them being very interesting costumes. I'm happy to say that I saw at least 1 Green man. But too many jokers, really. It took us a bit of time to get to Brooklyn, but we finally made it to the Masonic Temple somehow. Inferno went on at Midnight of course, opening with Witches. The rest of the show is a blur. Saw some great people, met some great people, experienced the great pumpkin, waltzed, danced, got covered in fake blood. All around a good show, good atmosphere.




Afterward, Dennis Pam and Dave left to go to the train station. The rest of us embarked on a 2 hours subway journey to a "party" in Brooklyn. The only people I really knew were Marc, Sam, Dave, and Christina. We put fake facial hair on posters in the train. and on people.
love these guys.


We got to the party, but it was kind of dead. Felt out of place for awhile, then a bunch of us went back on the subway for another hour or so. Totally just bro-chilled. Me and marc left for Penn Station while everyone else went to someone elses house. We waited an hour for the train and took it back to Metuchen. I got home around 10 AM. After being awake for 28 hours, I got 4 hours of sleep. Jeremy came over, and then Dennis Marc and Pam came over and we went to the movies to see Zack and Miri Make a Porno. It was definitely really good. Can't wait to see Kevin Smith on friday. After that we went to Time to Eat. I went home, and slept.

Sunday I didn't do much all day. I watched "Mr. Magorium Wonder Emporium" because it had Natalie Portman in it. Then dennis and pam came over and we played super smash brothers for about 2 hours. Watched the Simpsons Treehouse of Horrors, and it was really good. I havent seen many of them. They left, me and liz watched True Blood. Then I was up really late.

This morning was a pretty bad terrible horrible morning. I felt like I was going to puke, and I have a cold that has taken over me. School was long and uneventful. I came home and watched Running with Scissors. My parents are gone all this week, back to fitness camp. So it's kinda lonely here. Whatever. I took kona for a walk and layed outside for awhile. The weather was perfect.

cross yo fingas,

i just applied to Temple. hope i get in!


ps: Rocky Horror is on! weeee

hilarity ensues

I can safely say that I haven't changed much since 5th grade. Sure, I have continued on with my education and have learned many new things, but I don't think any of my beliefs really changed. I was kind of stuck in a phase where my parents were my main influence, but I was figuring things out in the back of my head. But I only realize this til now!
I found a journal that we kept in 5th grade. Some of the entries are pretty funny. Some still hold pretty true. I'll share some of the good ones.
(This journal is an M&M Brand notebook, that says "Great For Gel Pens!" and has a lot of vibrant colored pages.)
I suggest reading some of these. I find them pretty funny.

"Fall. 9/19/01
My favorite season is fall. It is my favorite season because of a lot of things. The weather I like the best. It is cool in the evening with a great breeze. The leaves are changing and it looks beautiful. I'd rather be outside all day then sitting inside watching TV.
Right now I am outside in the front yard watching the trees sway and listening to the dogs barking.
I love when the leaves fall. I like to rake them up and jump in them. I like running around in the cold weather and coming in for apple cider. I like wearing pants and sweat shirts. The most exciting part about fall is Halloween. I like getting a lot of candy. Also fall is when you go back to school. Nothing like seeing your friends and starting a brand new school year. "

Out of all the entries in the book, I think this one got to me the most. Because I lived in my old house, and fall has never been the same for me. I can just imagine myself writing that. All my memories are there...and I haven't enjoyed Fall as much since then.

"11/1/01
Once there was a man. He lived alone with his cat floopsy. The man was very old.
One day the man died. The cat went to find another home.
First he went to the Loud's. The Loud's house was too loud. Then he went to the Crowdo's. The Crowdo's house was too crowded. Then he went to the Skinnie's. The Skinnie's did not have enough food. He went tot he Exorciser's house. He did not want to Exorcise all the time. Finally, he found an old ladie's house (not too old) The lady gave him some milk. They became very close. The end."

Now, my inital reaction to this was "Exorcisers? What the fuck was I thinking? Did I even know what that meant?" But then I realized that I meant "Exercise" instead. Well, I think it'd be a bit more funny if I was in to some satanic shit back then.

"12/4/01
If I were a fly, I would want to listen to my sister with her friends over. I always try to listen to her. She does all this funky stuff. I like spying on people."

Funky stuff? What the hell?
I still am nosy person, though.

"12/17/01
My cats live in the barn. When it's cold they sleep in the tractor. Sometimes they get locked in there. We made them a bed. They are always trouble makers"

I think I wrote 3 entries about just my cats.

"1/11/02
My favorite movie is Silence of the Lambs. It is a disgusting movie, but I just cover my eyes. Every movie with my dad and I, he says "You have to pay attnetion." I said to him "Ever movie we see you have to pay attention" He said "This is the one you really have to pay attention to." I want to see the sequel, Hannibal. My dad says I am still too young. I love this movie."

I don't remember ever loving it THAT much. And wasn't I still a bit young to see Buffalo Bill tuck his weiner behind some skin? Geez dad, thanks. I still never saw Hannibal....grew out of that weird phase I guess. Must be why I rarely use lotion...

2/4/02 Differences between boys and girls? (something like that)
I think there is no difference. You might think boys have it easier because of how they go to the bathroom, but girls go through puberty worse than boys. Boys get into a lot of trouble and girls get into situations. They are even."

Yea, i was always jealous of guys getting to pee standing up.

"2/19/02 I dont really know what this entry is about.
Some sort of poultry, like a chicken club or just plain chicken. Cold or hot. Mainly chicken."

...followed by a picture of a chicken in the oven.
Mainly chicken.

"3/12/02
My sisters gives me a look with squinty eyes. They also shakes their heads. It means that what I just said is stupid to them or why did I bother doing that."

All I know about this entry is that my grammar was on the same level as Toki or Skwisgaar. "What is wrong with this dumb dildos, they gives us all the free coffee in the world and no instruction on how to cook it! "

"The Fighting Ground (A book we read presumably)
I don't think war is necessary. Countries can have their own ways and not fight because their country is better. I would be willing to fight in a war when one country hurts ours for no good reason. An example is September 11. I think that some people glorify war because they want to prove that their country is better than any other. The evidence is that people are breaking in wars for no good reason. You can tell when there is a war for no good reason. When your country hasn't done anything. I think that it was OK. The only thing bad was that they used "We did this this way but NOW it's different." They should of played their role as the 1600s. The only person playing their role was Mrs. Hall. Also the herb lady had a cell phone."

Alright, pretty spot on entry. I believed that war was bad. But yeah right- like i would fight in a war! ha.
anyways, the fucking HERB LADY (?!) had a cell phone. HAHAHA wut. \

So, that's it for the entries. Most of them were pretty amusing. I never wrote down what the prompts were. But I know that I was a strange child, and still am.

Now i feel like watching Metalocalypse..