today me and dennis went to Long Island. driving there is a bitch (and $14 dollars worth of tolls). but we got there. when we did, it was pouring. we went to a diner (nothing compared to NJ's diners) and it wasn't so bad. after that, we went to best buy because i wanted to find a radar detecter (since you can buy them in NY). I found one, but it was 60 bucks and "contained lead"....i didn't want to risk my chances of getting lead poisoning so I didn't get one. we played some Rock Band there and left.
we went to robs house for a bit, did much of nothing. after we left there we tried to find a coffee shop that was 20 minutes away, but it took us around an hour and a half to find it. Long island sucks that way. it was pouring again. the coffee house was sweet, and i got awesome tea and an awesome brownie, which was my dinner. we dropped rob off at home after that and went home. the ride home was rainy but it stopped and it was less stressful. no i'm home and dennis is asleep on my bed.
the long island sound.
We’ve seen it all, bonfires of trust flash floods of pain
today I visited my (great) uncle in the hospital. he's 85, and has diabetes for at least 30 years. So he's not doing so well. but i got to hear him laugh, and that made me happy.
Hospitals make me nervous. but it was all okay.
Today is the 62nd anniversary of world war II ending. so his "war buddies" were there to celebrate (as they have been for the last 61 years, which is incredible...and incredible that they were all so lively)
and various other family members were there.
the past few nights have been nice. 7-11 last night, hanging out in turntable junction with marc.
clinton station diner the night before. i've never been at a diner for so many hours like that.
tomorrow i am going to long island! for the first time ever. me & dennis are going to visit rob. but rob doesnt know dennis is coming.
and i am coming home to you, if its the last thing that i do
the weather has been nice. not too hot, but a little bit chilly. and rain= rainbows. a beautiful one at that.
the sound card in my computer broke...again. but i think jeremy might help me build a new computer. either way, i have no sound. again.
but, my i got my hours back at work. kinda. i work 15 hours a week and not 12. it's significant.
hmmmmm
"It's like my thumb is my cock"
Bad ducks going "Quack, quack, quack, ooh. Blargh."I've been to Time To Eat twice, got a free bagel, and the shitty waiter isn't so shitty.
I went to New Hope for the first time, and had dinner in Lambertville.
So there we go. It has kind of been an eventful week.
My family comes home from Canada today...kind got used to everyone being gone.
Oh well.
I'm not pumped on life. I don't think I will ever be. Sorry.
I know that I have already lost, and will lose people. But I don't care, I've accepted that. My lethargy has turned into understanding, even though I still don't understand the least bit of anything.
Canada.
I think I've been there 6 times. This is the first time I didn't go there while everyone else was going. (The trip has skipped a few years in the past) My entire family is up there right now, excluding my Mom and my dog. I didn't go this year because I didn't want to miss out on anything at home. I don't really think I would have missed out. But I don't think I could have lasted up there, either. There are A LOT of people this year. And the fact that my cousins are "older" now, and there is always lots of drinking going on. Plus, I don't eat meat/fish or feel comfortable with fishing. I'm not really sure how I feel. But its tearing me apart because its one of my favorite places ever. I miss the smell, the sand, the water. Its just a nice laske in the middle of nowhere where I can forget about everything.
Cayce is the only one who probably can picture/imagine what I am saying, since she was actually there. and I'm glad i could share it with someone else before it (is potentially?) over. I don't know if I'm ever going to go back.
So basically, it's been the source of my dreams for a good part of my life, and I miss it. I've had good times and bad times. The house is empty. I feel empty.
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